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email manipulator

Posted in Brutal Honesty with tags , , , , , , , on February 16, 2011 by addictmagnet

you know exactly how you arouse me…

with just a few words my body tingles,

my mind empties of all thoughts but you…

I spend too much time daydreaming,

wondering what it will be like to be held by you…

too many nights dreaming of you,

I can practically feel your kiss and caress…

and try as I may I cannot rationalize,

this need so strong that we must meet

make believe

Posted in Brutal Honesty with tags , , , , , , , on January 20, 2011 by addictmagnet

it’s all just make believe

love has never been real

 

it’s an optical illusion

I will see what isn’t there

 

I breath deep the scent of you

you leave and it lingers still

 

it’s a laugh track

you say what I want to hear

 

I taste your sweet lips

but I swallow a bitter pill

 

and, like with any drug

I cannot trust what I feel

 

because it’s just make believe

love is not real

 

JRD 1-20-2011

 

angry

Posted in Brutal Honesty with tags , , , , , , , on January 16, 2011 by addictmagnet

I don’t love you, never loved you

but I did care

now I’m just angry

angry that you refuse to communicate

angry that you not communicating caused this

angry that you called me a liar

angry that you don’t trust me

angry that you felt the need to check up on me

angry that you wouldn’t open the door

angry that you won’t talk to me face to face

angry that I made a fool of myself

angry that you are a coward

angry because when we stumbled you turned and ran

angry that I cared for a boy not a man

you never gave us a chance

I don’t love you, never loved you

but I did care…

JRD 1-16-2011

truth

Posted in Brutal Honesty with tags , , , , , , , , , , on November 21, 2010 by addictmagnet

what’s wrong with you

why not just tell me what’s on your mind

why don’t you believe me

you can’t hurt me with the truth

I’ve never lied to you

I’m honest in words and deeds

I’ve kept our secrets to myself

yet you insist on cold silence

when I question your intentions

why do you only evade

I must know our friendship will endure

when we find the one’s we’re waiting for

why can’t you understand the fear

I might misinterpret and cause you pain

I will always want happiness for you

so why don’t you believe me

you can’t hurt me with the truth

JRD 11/21/1020

light of life

Posted in Brutal Honesty with tags , , , , , , , , on July 27, 2010 by addictmagnet
Was never going to be a mother, had a bigger and better plan
I loved your father, but he’s a troubled soul so forgive him if you can

Wasn’t raising you with cocaine on the table and roaches in ashtrays

Held you in my arms as the smoke cleared and was able to see through the haze

it’s the light that takes me over

it’s the light that sets me free

it’s the light of life that’s inside of me

I left to make a better life for us, I did the best that I could do

He left, we never saw him again, I was too good for him, so are you

Got the job, ‘cause I got the degree, got the support of my family

Going to show everyone all I need is you and all you need is me

it’s the light that takes me over

it’s the light that sets me free

it’s the light of life that’s inside of me

I have a secret, you are the best mistake I ever made

You are much stronger and more beautiful than any plans I could’ve laid

You grew into such a smart and funny child, and precocious as they come

I know I was often tough on you, it’s me you needed to escape from

And you went away and saw hard times too but you succeeded in the end

Your are my pride and joy, you are my heart and soul, and now you are my friend

it’s the light that takes me over

it’s the light that sets me free

it’s the light of life that’s inside of me

You’re the light of life that shines inside of me

Lyrics JRD – Music Steve Shabala copyright 7/27/2010

stolen pride

Posted in Brutal Honesty with tags , , , , , , , , on July 27, 2010 by addictmagnet
You needed someone to help you through

And the lies you told were so smooth

I was different from all the others

We were meant for only each other

So how did you choose me to ease your pain

And why did I let my guard down so easily

And where did you learn to play this game

And when will my pride be regained

Your eyes looked right into my soul

Your words distracted, my heart you stole

So I am classier and I’m platinum

Well I feel gullible and I feel dumb

So how did you choose me to ease your pain

And why did I let my guard down so easily

And where did you learn to play this game

And when will my pride be regained

You paraded me around and I met your friends

Now I can’t go anywhere without running into them

We hung out at the pub and the best place in town

We went on a holiday then you let me down

So how did you choose me to ease your pain

And why did I let my guard down so easily

And where did you learn to play this game

And when will my pride be regained

So now you want to be my friend, not for it to be the end

And I’m suppose to be ok and I’m not suppose to show my pain

And now you play the game with someone new

And I am suppose to smile when I look at you

At night while they kiss and caress you

I lay awake crying silent tears missing you

So how did you choose me to ease your pain

And why did I let my guard down so easily

And where did you learn to play this game

And when will my pride be regained

Lyrics by JRD – Music by Steve Shabala copyrighted 7/27/2010

passion

Posted in Brutal Honesty with tags , , , , , , , on May 17, 2010 by addictmagnet
With you it’s brand new

My passions are aroused

The need consumes me

I feel awakened from the dead

Indulge my sensual pleasures

Softly touch my skin

Gently kiss my lips

Use your tongue to taste and explore

Neck, breasts, thighs, and more

I will pleasure you as well

I want to taste my sweetness

on your lips and fingers

Taste the saltiness of you

I want to discover you

The places that arouse you

Touch, nibble and lick those places

Drive you crazy with my mouth and tongue

Kissing harder now with wanting

And as we two become one

I want to feel you deep inside me

Slowly, rhythmically moving together

Almost desperate with the need

Unable to contain the gasps and moans

As we take each other to the brink

Then climax, holding each other

Not wanting to let go